Sick

Not much going on over here the last few days. I've been so sick since Saturday. I do remember getting this exact same thing last year and the year before. Maybe it's just my body's way of going from one season to the next. By constantly coughing, loosing my voice, fever and absolutely no energy but yet at the same time feel just well enough to do something until Im mid way through it then want to die. It's been super fun. So..needless to say I've got myself addicted to yet another TV show. This time it's Gossip Girl and I seem to have plowed through all of Season 1 and am debating if I should download season 2. I get so addicted it's all I want to do and it makes my brain absolute mush. So Im going to attempt to resist but last night I did lie in bed while Tim was asleep and watch the first episode of season 2 and cant stop thinking about it. Im getting sweaty palms at the thought of actually downloading it. Addiction?? I think so. I don't think there is a thing on this planet that I can actually NOT get addicted to. It's pretty amazing.

Good news is I looked into the macrobiotic school and have made a decision to go there. Check it out if you feel like it. http://www.macroschool.co.uk/ It's a pretty amazing place and so perfect for me right now. I would start in December and it goes through July. My only concern is that if anything gets messed up with immigration then I can't come back for 6 months. I have a conversation with the school tomorrow so I will see what they can do for me. But I have a good feeling about all of it. Even though we have not heard back from immigration Im going to move forward with my life knowing I can stay here otherwise I think I will go insane. I need to have some sort of a plan. I realize Im not good with out one. Im calling a "plan" now an "intention" so that I don't trap myself or freak if is does not work out. Anyway....I am super excited. This school is beautiful and exactly what I need for myself at this time in my life. I need something to be passionate about again. It scares me when I don't have that.

Okay..going back to my coughing fit.

xox